A new chapter?

In 20 days, I'll be trudging into a new chapter of life, the chapter most of my friends have already entered; University. University was never an option for me, it was always a 'yeah, duh, of course you're going to university' for me. Now, I use the word 'me', but in fact I mean 'a lot of people out there'. Why are so many of us stuck in this orifice that university is a must? Not that my parents ever pressured me into going to uni, I think they'd accept and agree if I don't want to go. University was just there, it was a step in life that I couldn't skip, like pooping or drinking water. 

My use of 'trudging' makes it clear that I'm not looking forward or excited for the start of university. But I think (and hope) that is partly because I'm just fresh out of travelling Asia and partly because I'm so content with life right now. With an amazing job, amazing people surrounding me and also amazing amount of sleep I'm getting. 

I've been living my life as if I'll wake tomorrow with a tuft of grey hair and wrinkles outlining my eyes, with my aspirations and dreams slipping through my helpless fingers. Its sort of a vicious cycle; I'm not excited about uni because my dreams seem to be slipping away. My dreams seem to be slipping away, that's why I'm not excited about uni. But, if anything, my life is just about starting. I was chatting to my friend, Sophia (shout out WOOP WOOP) about my 'unexcitedness', and she said 'Maybe that's because you've already seen so much of what life has to offer.' And I realised its the opposite, its cos I haven't seen enough of what life has to offer. And i further realised (a lot of realisations happening) that who says I can't see what life has to offer whilst at uni?! University's not the end of the world, Naomi Berry. 

So, I'm taking this big gamble. A big £9000 gamble, I'm entering university without so much as a tinge of excitement. If I really don't think its the thing for me then, well, life can suck so move on. If I enjoy if so much, then life only sucks sometimes. 

And lastly, what I wanna say is; take your time, enjoy life a lil. Take a gap year, or five gap years, get married (okay maybe not this), work out what's right for you. Surround yourself with people in uni, who's finished uni, who's not going to uni etc etc. Take your time to listen to yourself and not your parents, friends etcetc. (Motivational siaaaa).

Rant over, you can go take a dump now.  

Enjoy life. xxx